Trying to Cope with the WORLD!!!

Yesterday I only manage to do an 8km run and I was already feeling very exhausted. I think I'm over working myself with exercise. Well what else can I do??? I have the netball tournament and our practice is on Tuesday and Thursday, then I have the 10km race coming up and the end of the month and I really need to build stamina. Sigh...we seriously don't have enough days in a week.

My week goes something like this:

Monday: Jog - 5km
Tuesday: Netball
Wednesday: Jog 10km which I couldn't yesterday :(
Thursday: Netball
Friday: Day Off
Saturday: Jog 10km
Sunday: Day Off

For the Saturday and Sunday Off, it will only be for this week. If you've been following my blog, you'll know that next weekend onwards (for 3 consecutive weeks) it will be pack with netball. So I think next week I need to reschedule my whole week so that I have some rest days. If I continue doing what I'm doing, I'll probably get some kind of leg injury. Sigh...fingers cross that that doesn't happen. So maybe my schedule should be something like this:

13th -19th July
Monday: Jog 10km
Tuesday: Netball
Wednesday: Jog 12km
Thursday: Netball
Friday: Day Off
Saturday: Netball Tournament
Sunday: Netball Tournament

20th - 26th July
Monday: Jog 12km
Tuesday: Netball
Wednesday: Jog 12km
Thursday: Netball
Friday: Day Off
Saturday: Run at 6am then Netball Tournament
Sunday: Netball Tournament

27th July - 02nd August
Monday: Day Off
Tuesday: Netball
Wednesday: Day Off
Thursday: Netball
Friday: Day Off
Saturday: Netball Tournament
Sunday: Netball Tournament

The last weekend will be the most relaxing one.

And lately I've been eating a lot cause I seem to be hungry all the time. My body is probably telling me to slow down...don't you think? In the days I exercise, I'm usually drench wet with sweat....and after I take a shower, I'm still sweating that I need to change my baju again....like yesterday, I changed my baju twice!!!

Will probably be pretty FIT when it is all over. But for now, I'm sniffling....that's not a good sign and its raining outside. Can't get sick now...not a good time to be sick. Sigh....need to consume more Vitamin C!!! Plus I have cravings to eat Nasi lelapan...hahaha....dunno why :P

I guess that's it from me!!! Ta for now!!! Oh wait! I just found out that our netball practice is off today!!! WOOHOO!!! At least I can have my day off today and try for a longer jog tomorrow. See you guys!!! Off to our new team welcoming drinking session ;) TA again!!!

NETBALL CRAZE HERE I COME!!! WOOHOO!!!

I think this was taken last year when I still had my long hair. Can't even recall when was the last time I had long hair. Due to my genetic background, I'm a very short person (this would definitely be an understatement if I was born in the Western world, if I was born there, I would be considered very very the short lah!!! BOOHOOO!!!) the only position I can play would be Center and WA...boohoo again!!! But nevertheless, I love being in the Center position or being WA, it fits me pretty well I must say :D

I just found out today that we are going to have 3 netball tournaments for 3 weekends in a row!!! WOOHOO!!! It's like a netball craze!!! hahaha....sure by the end of the last game our team will all kaput and super FIT and probably not want to play netball for a couple of months....:P TIRING BAH!!! I think for those of you who are not from Miri or never have been here before, would probably say "Wah! this people in Miri sure got nothing else better to do" :P but I could be wrong :P

The tournament dates goes something like this:

KRP Pre-Merdeka Netball Tournament

18th - 19th July 2009

KSK Tournament

26th - 27th July 2009

Nameless Tournament (we just got the invite, so no name yet :))

01st - 02nd August 2009

And its usually two full days!!! That is if we are good lah :P From my point of view, I think we are quite ok eh. I mean from the very first time we were together until now, we have improve a lot!!! You should have seen us the first time!!! Half the time we were laughing in the game, cause half the time we were losing the ball and the ball keeps rolling away from us!!! At that point of time I was beginning to think that the ball had a mind of its own!!! :P. But now, we have much better control of the ball :)

Anyway, the worst part to this is that for the KSK tournament, I have my 10km run at 6am on the 2nd day of the game!!! AIYOYOYOYO!!! I'm just hoping I'll be able to build up enough energy and stamina to be able to keep up with both the 10km and the tournament. Well its probably not as bad as it seems since we have back-up players as well....so I could probably skip the first game of that morning :D. Plus, did I mention my sister is doing the 10km run as well??? I think I did in one of my email. I really can't wait for the run. It would be nice to run with my sister after so long....won't be surprise if I get left behind :P.

Oklah...that's it from me....Ta for now!!! NETBALL CRAZE HERE I COME!!! WOOHOO!!!

This was during the Highlanders Games Carnival this year (June)....look at all the pretty girls ;)

P/S. You probably have no idea how much I love this game. My life priority goes something like this, GOD first, FAMILY second & NETBALL!!! ;)

Heartbroken on Sunday :(

That Sunday morning I woke up to my 3.5 year old daughter kissing me on my cheek and saying 'I love you mummy'. That was like 7am in the morning. It was a beautiful way to wake up to, but I was still tired and wanted to sleep. So I told my daughter I love her too and told her that mummy still wanted to sleep. So she decided she would do some colouring with my MIL. In the process of colouring she came to me and kiss me again and told me that she wanted me to colour in her book after I woke up. I said 'ok!' and close my eyes again.

Then at 9am I decided that its time to wake up, so I got up and went straight to the toilet. She forgot that she wanted me to colour and so did I. So after showering and in the process of getting ready to go to church, she came into the room and said to me or more like scream at me. The conversation went like this:

Daughter: 'MOMMY!!!! YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO COLOUR FIRST BEFORE YOU DIUK!!!' (Diuk in Kelabit is Bath)

Me: Sorry dear, but mummy already mandi, let mummy get ready first to go to church then I will colour with you

Daughter (Screaming and crying): NO!!! YOU HAVE TO COLOUR FIRST BEFORE YOU DIUK!!!

Me: But I already mandi, there is nothing I can do already...

Daughter(Crying hysterically and screaming at the same time saying): NO!!! YOU HAVE TO COLOUR FIRST BEFORE YOU DIUK!!!

Me (Shouting): WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! IF YOU CONTINUE LIKE THIS, MOMMY LEAVE YOU AT HOME AH!!!!

Daughter (Crying and shouting): YOU SAID YOU WILL COLOUR FIRST!!!!

Me: AIYO!!!! SORRY LAH!!!! I COLOUR LATER!!! LET MUMMY GET READY FIRST!!!

Daughter: I WANT YOU TO COLOUR FIRST!!!

Me: SERA!!! YOU STOP THAT AH!!! MUMMY BEAT YOU AFTERWARDS AH!!!!

Daughter: I WANT YOU TO COLOUR FIRST BAHHHH!!!

So I surrendered and was super annoyed, so I went out to colour that paper that she wanted me to colour. While doing that I didn't even say a word to her. After I finished I went back into the room to get ready again. Of course my daughter came in as well with me. And the conversation continues:

Daughter: Mummy I want you to colour the other picture also...

Me (being very irritated with her): WAIT BAH!!! AFTERWARDS WE ALL WON'T BE ABLE TO GET TO CHURCH BECAUSE OF YOU!!!

Daughter obviously started crying...

ME (getting more irritated by that time): STOP IT SERA!!!

Daughter (Crying): Mummy I kiss you this morning bah and say I love you, why you Bu'uh-bu'uh me... (Bu-uh in Kelabit means scold)

Wah! At that moment I felt like I was the most terrible mom in the history of moms!!! I immediately put down what I was doing and carried her and gave her a big hug and said I was sorry. My heart broke into tiny pieces!!! It was so heartbreaking!!! I couldn't believe I could have been so mean to her. I apologies to her and told her that I was in a bad mood that morning, and you know what she said:

Daughter: It's ok mummy, you bad mood...

And we both hug and said 'I love YOUs' and she gave me the hugest of smiles....and I gave her many many kisses...

Sigh....I sure as hell will never forget that day....the day my heart broke into small pieces...but with her smile and ok she glued it all back again....

The worst part to it was "It was a Sunday, a day where I shouldn't even have gotten angry with her' I had to ask God for his forgiveness for losing my temper that morning. But (yes, I'm trying to justify myself a little bit here :P) sometimes kids can be so unreasonable with their demands. Don't you think so???

Well, for one thing I'm sure of is that I can't live without her. She's my little angel and on that day, she made me realise that sometimes all you need is more patience and love. Both of which I'm struggling to have more of.

That's it from me aka the terrible mom :( ....ta!

Mir Star Cineplex, AIYO!!! PARTY tonight, WOOHOO!!! PTI, AIYO!!!

My feedback on the movie, well, it was pretty good!!! Would definitely watch it a second time :D. If you don't follow my blog and have no clue what movie I'm talking about, look at my previous blog. Oh yah, and THANKS FOR DROPPING BY!!!! Really appreciate it!!! ;)

My feedback on the Star Cineplex in Miri, AIYO!!!! Hahaha...that's overstating it lah. Its not that bad....only problem was that during the movie, there are some parts where the sound system was just horrible!!! You couldn't really hear them talking, they were more like mumbling!!! You know how when people get drunk and they can't talk properly....like that LAH! And there are some parts when the sound just disappeared. I know that I should have watched it the first few days when it first came out so that everything would be close to perfect.

But still!!! That's not a good excuse for us who goes a week after and pay the same amount RM10 and get worse quality!!! Shouldn't they have more than one movie roll??? Takkan they play the same one over and over again. It's no wonder some movie rolls burn up!!! At least charge us RM8 kah..so we won't complain so much!!! True or not??? And you know how much they charge for kids!!! RM8!!! and my daughter it only 3.5 years old!!! Cannot charge RM5 kah??? Well, I guess they want to make profit...can't really blame them either!!! If only we had another Cineplex in Miri, then there will probably be some kind of price competition. Like AirAsia and MAS lah....always have price competition!!! Kan bagus if that happens to our Cineplex as well. Then Star Cineplex would pay more attention to the quality of their Cineplex and give the kids a cheaper price!!!

Anyway, despite all that, I'm going to go catch 'Ice Age 3'...Woohoo!!! Hahaha, I know you must be thinking, 'What lah this girl, never learn!!!'....hahaha....in this case...'yups!!! I never learn one!!!' Plus the fact that I'm very forgiving one!!! :P Hehehe...and its fun bah....despite all the downside to the star cineplex :P I'm just hoping I get luckier this time around and the movie roll will be close to perfect!!! Fingers cross again!!!

And if you are the owner of the Star Cineplex and you are reading my blog by some miracle, could you please fix chair H7. Its slowing falling down...thanks!!!

Talking about chairs falling down in the Cineplex...there was a time when me and my friend went to watch a movie (which I can't recall) and we were given the new Cineplex on top (compared to the ones below, it was definitely new!). We were excited lah!!! Cause it was the first time we were going up there. I was impress with the layout and all and I told my friend about it. We both agreed.

So in we when to find our seats. I sat first and let my friend in to sit next to me. And as she sat, she disappeared with a THUD!!! And I couldn't help it but start laughing, cause her seat just fell apart!!! Of course in the process of laughing, I somehow manage to say "Aiyo! kesian you!!!" The good thing to it all was, she was laughing too!!! And she didn't get hurt :D Of course we immediately call the workers there and told them we are taking the other seats. The workers there couldn't believe it too!!! Thank goodness it wasn't full house on that day!!! So much for expecting the new part of the Cineplex to be better than the old one!!! Moral of the story...never judge a book by its covers :P.

Anyway, tonight I'm going out to P-A-R-T-Y!!! It's my friend's birthday and I haven't been out for ages so I think I'm going to have a blast!!! Skali see, boring skali me and wishing I was in bed pulak! I think when that happens, that will be the day I will officially declare that I'm OLD!!! AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh TIDAK!!!! I'm FOREVER YOUNG!!! Geeezzz...now I have this song in my head, "Forever Young, I want to be forever young....."

Ohhhhh...I almost forgot that I have a Parents-Teachers-Interview (PTI) tomorrow at 9.10am!!! I hope the teacher says nice things about my daughter....:P. Well, that's the least of my worries for now, I'm more worried that I won't be able to wake up!!! Better set my phone alarm now just in case...wait ah....ok done!!! I put it at 8.30am....ohhh....let me check whether I got the am and the pm right...if not tonight at 8.30pm I'll be hearing my alarm go off and wondering what that alarm is for...knowing me, I can be very the Short Term Memory....ok, I go check first...matilah me if salah....wait again ah....ok...got it right...it's at 8.30am :D. Enough time for me to jump out of bed, get ready, and take panadol if my head is pounding due to hang over!!! Ada nanti instead of going to my daughters school, I drive all the way to work....Kuang Kuang Kuang!!! Hahaha....:P

Ok...I'm talking nonsense now.....will stop! :P

So for those who are going clubbing tonight...happy partying!!! And happy weekend to everyone else!!!

Ta!!!

Transformers! Here we Come!!!

Balqiz! sorry I stole your blog style format...this was funny so I had to add it into my blog...sorry yah...jangan marah!

Tonight I'm going to bring my daughter to watch transformers (I've heard good reviews about it..hopefully its as good as what everyone says it to be :))....she has yet to go into a Cineplex so this will be a very first experience :D. I can't wait to see her reaction!!! I have a feeling she will probably say something like this "Wah! So big!".

I actually wanted to bring her watch "Ice Age 3" since it is out already and I told her about it, but she said to me that she wants to watch 'Transformers" instead....so what to do...listen only lah to the queen of the house :P. Well, I also want to see...so its a win-win situation...WOOHOO!!! Hopefully she likes it and don't decide that she wants to leave the cineplex half way through. I probably will be very upset with her....haha...fingers cross!!!

Note that I have a very strange daughter...she prefers to watch Transformers, Ultraman (she has two of this toys at home and she even got me to buy her dinasours cause she said ultraman didn't have anybody to fight with :P...so pelik my daughter, she even knows whch one is Ultraman Cosmos and which one is Ultraman Gaia :O) and stuff like that rather than girly girly ones....THANKS GOODNESS she likes pink and we manage to persuade her to buy a barbie doll school bag instead of the Ben 10 one that she first wanted!!! :)

Besides that, I'm hoping that there wouldn't be many people today going to the cineplex....so I can have a choice of seats to chose from. I'm just hoping that the movie roll (not sure what you call that) doesn't burn or something like that....I heard it has happen many times already. I'm also hoping that they have solve the mouse issues too!!!

How I wish Miri had another Cineplex to go to. That way at least there is competition and both cineplex would at least try to keep their standards up!!! It is so sad that we are only stuck with one cineplex. So if there is any RICH PPL reading this, please lah....open one more cineplex in Miri....can or not??? Plllleeeaaaaaaaassssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...... (doubt that will work, and doubt that rich ppl would take the time to read blogs...sigh).

If only I had a passport, I would probably go down to brunei to watch it, since I've heard Brunei Cineplex is so many times better....true kah??? Anybody been there before???

Anyway, I'm not expecting too much from our cineplex in Miri and mind you I'm pretty accommodating. So, if you see my blog tomorrow and I'm complaining about our Cineplex...that means it is really super duperly crap!!! I hope I won't complain. Don't want my daughter's first experience to be a crappy one.

Ta for now!!! Transformers, here we come!!!

God Answers Prayers!!!

Todays blog is all about how Great my God is :D. First of all, I want you to know that he is my number one priority in my life and he will always be my number one priority. You know, despite all I've gone through....he has always been there for me and he has answered so many of my prayers. He doesn't do it immediately, but he does it according to his time. He is really a good God. Let me give you a couple of examples of the prayers he has answered for me:

1) I was on the verge of losing my job a few months back as my team was suppose to move to KL, it was pretty much set that way. My boss told me that I probably won't be needed any more as there is another person in KL who is already doing what I am doing and she will take on my part of the job. You can imagine how stressed I was. I was depress and worried, and because of that I turned to God. I prayed and prayed and prayed. And after waiting for a few months, the result was out, and it was decided that we were to stay in Miri!!! You could not have even imagine how relief I was with the decision. I was senyum-ing lika a kambing!!! After that I was given an extension on my job instead of the termination that I dreaded. SEE! isn't God just wonderfully marvelous!!! The best part is, yesterday I was told that I will most probably be given permanent status next year!!! Apa lagik....my senyum was super besar!!! Kalah the kambing in the picture below :P Anyway, that was the best news I've had in ages. Thank you so much LORD!!! I couldn't ask for more.

2) I was suppose to get my graituity pay in my June salary but due to some unforseen circumstances I was told that it would only be in my July salary. I was a bit upset cause I kinda budgetted the June's salary with the graituity pay. But despite that, I prayed and told God to help me out in my time of need. I then re-budgetted and decided that I could cut some expenses from here and there and be able to pull through the month of June. A few days later, I got an email from HR saying that my graituity pay will be in my June salary!!! I was so surprise cause I thought that they had close my case already. So, you see again!!! Isn't the Lord just amazing!!! :D

Those are just a couple of which I wanted to share with you all. I know at times that you may feel as if HE is so far away from you but HE isn't. HE has an unconditional love which passes all understanding. And despite what you've done, HE'll forgive you and always be there for you. Do keep in mind that HE loves us sinners, HE just doesn't love our sins. So pray, have faith and believe, and your prayers will be answered!!! Let HIM answer your prayers in HIS Time cause HE knows when it is best!

God is good all the time!!!

Ta for now!!!

Children's Reward Charts??? Does it Work???

My daughter is a little monster in disguise. She's a super drama queen and has a pretty bad temper. Especially when she's over tired. Example of things that she will do:

1. Scream very loud....as if the world is going to end cause she can't get what she wants...
2. Starts crying and saying "I NEED IT BAH!!!" "I WANT IT BAH!!!"
3. Starts throwing things at the person she's angry with...very bad behaviour...
4. Starts running around like a headless chicken!!!! As if by doing so she will get what she wants..
5. Opens her eyes really big and starts hitting the person she is angry with....
   

And she finally stops when she has over cried and starts vommiting....

Then, I ask the mom would go, "See!!! I already say don't cry, but you never listen!!! You know you always cannot get what you want!!! You are so spoil!!!"

And daughter continues crying.....sounds terrible doesn't it???

Usually after all the commotion we will hug each other in bed and I'll explain to her nicely on why I was angry with her and why she cannot always get what she wants. Then I'll say sorry and she'll say sorry to me too. Its really nice at that moment, but then the explanation doesn't really sink through and eventually a few days later the tantrum begins again.

Sometimes I give her the silent treatment when I'm upset with her for being naughty...but she just pretends that I'm not giving her the silent treatment and continues chatting a way as if nothing has happen....which annoys me even more....by the end of that day when we are both in bed....I'll again give her the same talk and explain to her why I was angry with her..and again we both will say our sorry's and give each other hugs and kisses.

And the cycle goes on and on and on....(of course there are days when she just a little sweetheart lah....but I've got to stop her from throwing things and hitting ppl, which is a reallybad habit, noting that she's only 3.5 years old!!!)

So, since what I do just doesn't work, I've decided to try using the "Children's Rewards Chart". It looks something like this:

On the left side of it is where I should put the behaviour that I would liker her to have. And each day that she keeps to that behaviour, she gets a big star on the flower pot....and by the end of the week if she successfully gets more than 6 stars (I know there is only 6 pots there, I'm going to have to make my own rewards chart so I have 7 days in it), she'll be rewarded. I've yet to really figure out the reward system but I'll get to it in a few days while I design my own chart. Once that is done, I'll put it up here for you all to see. Will it work??? Who knows??? I guess I just got to give it a go....

Wish me all the best in my success to modifying my daughter's behaviour!!! I hope this works, if not I have to start reading all those parental books....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....as much as I like reading...I don't really have the time for it.

Ok, that's it from me.....will keep you all updated!!!